Random Post/ Declaration

HERE YEE HERE YEE.. I have a declaration/ announcement to make. From this day forth, I, Sarah ***** shall never drink any alcohol or alcohol like substances ever AGAIN!!

That is right ladies and gents, I refuse to drink alcohol again. I have gone completely sober before and I can do it again. I will do it again.

S woke up today trying to talk about last night. He did make me breakfast though, I apologized of course. He said I was terrible and I am never going to drink again, and I agree. I was such a disgrace. So I will now completely change myself and be a better person, a better girlfriend, a better friend, a better everything. I need to make changes and I am started it right now.

ON A SIDE NOTE: I taught my kitten Luna, how to fetch. After 15 minutes of determination, my kitten can now fetch. Obviously, don't take my WORD for it. Here is a video of the pretty kitty fetching me her toy: short and sweet.

Her name is Luna. S named her. He likes planets and stuff and a lot of people do not know this but (LESSON OF THE DAY:) Luna is the name of our MOON :D

We got her so when S would go to work, I would have some one to hang out and play with. She is really sweet except it is hard to blog with her around because of this nonsense:

S fell asleep next to me... he is pretty upset still. I am going to try to fix things. 

-Sarah

The Worst Night Ever

Yesterday, after I was pissed because we couldn't go fishing, I decided to have a drink. Mind you, I haven't been DRUNK in 8 months. S told me his BESTFRIEND and BRO wanted to come over and chill... so I drank AGAIN.

Drunk Me happens to be outspoken. These people are 27-30 years old and say the word "tight" when reffering to cool. Slang? At that age? COME ON!! I thought I was going to be around mature, successful, wiser people. But no... instead its just really urban, STUPID, teenagers!!

Unfortunately once the friends of S went to bed, he came into our room at yelled at me for 1/2 an hour. YELLED. Made me cry in fact, and he said "cry, go ahead, I don't give a fuck if you cry".

I found out I was a complete bitch, I made a horrible first impression, I was completely stuck up and immature and idiotic and wasted.

I never meant to be that way. I was drunk around sober people, I feel so bad and so sorry but my pride is too huge to be any sort of apologetic. I am so upset and wounded by his words. I don't know what I am going to do or say today. He said he loved me still after all that yelling but I am just too hurt and upset with myself.

Fishing and Fighting

An oncoming thunderstorm was heading our way. The lake looked like still glass. There was no wind, no sound at all. I thought that fishing would be a success today. Suddenly, a strike of lightning hit the centre of the lake in front of our eyes. Crackling thunder followed, and S and I hauled ass out of there. I was really looking forward to fishing and hanging out.. so today I have to be stuck indoors all day with a boyfriend who just wants to play videogames.

Thus the fight. We never screamed at each other, but today, we were very angry. I was called unappreciative, I call him lazy and boring. We worked it out eventually but I am still a little upset.

-Sarah

Welcome to My New Life

Hi. If you have not read my bio or the about me portion.. here is the long story short:

I'm 18. I'm Canadian. I escaped a hell hole and ran away to my 30 year old boyfriend in America... The South.
I was once the perfect student at one of the best Universities.. in fact I was that 4 months ago. But now I am to happy and healthy, hoping to finish my education, marry the man I ran away to and not get pregnant along the way.
 WARNING: THIS BLOG HAS MATURE CONTENT... SEXUAL ;)
I have been here a month so far. I have never been to the South in America... so the accents, the culture, the food... it is all new to me. Another thing that is new to me, is having a boyfriend. Yes. That is right. I have never had a boyfriend before S. We have a lot of problems: age difference, culture differences, ethnicity differences, sometimes even language differences. But I love S and he loves me.

When we first met over a year ago he told me he was 24. So for his birthday, I thought he was 25. Little did I know, the man of my dreams kept his real age from me and told me the truth the day before my flight! But was it the truth? No sir, he said he was 29. S said that he was afraid that I would be disgusted by his age but the truth is, I was upset that he lied. Then after I got here, one week later I see that he is really 30 (checked his passport). Another lie... bringing me to tears and nearly packing my bags for a trip back. But we worked it out.

TODAY:
I decided to be super lovely and give S a wake up lip lovin for his... you know what. I went on for a half an hour : my lips numb, my mouth full of saliva. I was hoping for some sex in return but he asked if he could cum and I rolled my eyes and said yes. I swallowed of course and he went on  to say how great I was and how much he loved me. But I was upset because I want some sex! I want to be pleasured too! I stayed angry for 3 hours but just decided to let it go and "rape" him later tonight maybe ;)

Hope to expect my period in a few days. Fingers crossed.. we hardly use protection! (BAD NEWS BEARS)

Anyway, I am going fishing (hopefully) today with S because it is his day off. Perhaps I will catch a few and put up some pictures of them. Thanks for reading up to here.

-Sarah