Yesterday, after I was pissed because we couldn't go fishing, I decided to have a drink. Mind you, I haven't been DRUNK in 8 months. S told me his BESTFRIEND and BRO wanted to come over and chill... so I drank AGAIN.
Drunk Me happens to be outspoken. These people are 27-30 years old and say the word "tight" when reffering to cool. Slang? At that age? COME ON!! I thought I was going to be around mature, successful, wiser people. But no... instead its just really urban, STUPID, teenagers!!
Unfortunately once the friends of S went to bed, he came into our room at yelled at me for 1/2 an hour. YELLED. Made me cry in fact, and he said "cry, go ahead, I don't give a fuck if you cry".
I found out I was a complete bitch, I made a horrible first impression, I was completely stuck up and immature and idiotic and wasted.
I never meant to be that way. I was drunk around sober people, I feel so bad and so sorry but my pride is too huge to be any sort of apologetic. I am so upset and wounded by his words. I don't know what I am going to do or say today. He said he loved me still after all that yelling but I am just too hurt and upset with myself.
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